I remember driving, downpouring, tires sliding, screams, and for a split second wondered what was going to happen next. Stopped abruptly, anxiously wanting out. Shock, a little intense laughter, stepping out as the coldness pelts down on our warm pulsing skin. Drenching our worries away, happy to feel, touch, and see rain as we realize he is with us.
I don't remember the pain, but I do. Try to etch it out deeply, through the skin, the bone. Feel the sinking swim. Try to escape to happiness, someone else's happiness, not sure if mine existed. Holding on to the time and place where peace begins. I don't remember the screams, and cursing but I do. Pulling the pillow over, earmuffing the cries, wanting to be there, for him, unsure of how.
Failed as a human being. Walked away without feeling, numbness had taken over. Separated from one another, digging deeper into no man's land. A land far away, unknown to many, unknown to us.
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